I have been thinking a lot lately about life and death and our purpose for living. A lot of this introspection on this was of this was brought about by the announcement praying for brother Nabil Querishi's condition last year and finally his death from stomach cancer. I watched his vlog posts and prayed often for God to heal him. Also I saw how his desperation to get healing, somewhat biased his normally strong theological knowledge. The topics he preached about for years were being tested first hand to see if what he said was truly what he believed to be true. It's true no one sees God, has relationship with him, or interprets the Bible in a vacuum. All we do, and even our theology, is heavily weighed by our emotions and circumstances. We are just human. Yet I also know that it's good to be unearthed at times so we can challenge our faith and thinking about what we truely know about God. God uses trials to see how well we cling to his ultimate promises of hope clearly laid out in his Holy Word. Without serious trials in life our faith tends to be somewhat theoritical, so we and others need to see it tested and refined as metal is purified by fire.
For me to live is Christ, but to die is gain!
Even though we walk faithfully in the Spirit and have his deposit of assurance in our hearts; even though we worship God daily and have relationship with Jesus the Son with great intimacy and call God our "Abba, Father" with closeness of his presence with us; it is still but a faint glimmer of all He truly is. The apostle Paul reminds us of this "For presently we see through a glass in obscurity; but then, face to face. Presently, I know in part; but then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known." (1 Cor 13:12). Think about this, these are the words of one blinded by direct and personal conversation with the glorified and risen Lord; who God frequently moved within to pen God's own messages to his Church and moved through in power to do miraculous things to heal the sick and raise the dead, and yet he saw dimmly the knowledge of God? What does this say about you and me?
He has shown you O Man, what is good and what the LORD requires of you. But to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God.